archive for April, 2005



squire for hire

dandy

i had never been down the dark alley behind the multistory megaclub before. i know, though, that the heavy, square peg in my pocket is the key that everyone has so desperately been looking for. walking down the dark damp alley, i avoid the puddles, the stench of urban decay, and thinking about what’s about to unfold.

through the fog, i finally find the anonymous rear door. i lean onto the intercom button, feeling the crappy cctv camera looking down on me. the buzzer buzzes, static sqwuaks, but the door doesn’t open. i push, i pull—nothing. i stand there awkwardly, turning over and over this heavy key in my right hand.

the door swings open, and i’m greeted by… him. handsome, but with dark circles under his eyes. without a word, he takes me through countless rooms, past bunk beds of lanky, shirtless lads lounging around, reading, whispering, napping. strange.

we enter a huge, strangely ornate and elegant common area with high ceilings that resembles a hotel lobby, circa 1860. the room is expansive, and i can’t even imagine how it fits into the tiny building i just entered off the alley. he motions for me to sit on one of the leather sofas, by the fireplace.

one by one, the cute boys slither down from their bunk beds to join me on the sofas. they’re all staring intently at me. fear? anger? lust? i stare back.

i can recognize each and every one—of course—they’re the flyer boys for the megaclub next door. but there’s something more, something sour, something… dark. this key i have means a lot to them. it wasn’t an easy key to come by, and i’m having second thoughts about giving it back.

the handsome man returns, head held low. behind him is an older woman. she has tightly-pursed lips, a slight haunch, but a definite air of authority. she whispers into his ear. he winces, and runs off. the boys look down nervously as she comes to sit next to me. she lights a cigarette, and turns to me…

bring the kids!

boom boom boom
photo of my bed1

some silly things people do while in my bed to pass the time:

ask about large fuschia high-heel shoe on my bookshelf2.

try on spiderman mask.

examine anatomically-correct bunny rabbit plush toy3.

put on santa claus4 hat.

try to turn on non-functioning5 furby doll.

drink stale beer that’s been sitting out for god-only-knows how long6.

dig under bed to find mysterious hotel room key card7 from some hotel in spain i’ve never been to.

try on large fuschai high-heel shoe on my bookshelf.

watch countless episodes of will & grace.8

try to take naughty videos using cameraphone.

try, in vain, to queue up music in winamp using my wireless keyboard. my computer only plays one song9.

have hot, steamy, raucous sex10.

there’s plenty to do. fun for the whole family. bring the kids!


[1] not a photo of my bed. actually, stolen from steven’s great site. he likes red calvins and id lube.

[2] at buca di beppo in pasadena 7 years ago, i stole this shoe from the restaurant’s kitschy decor for adrienne‘s birthday. it’s large, though—conclusively, it’s a man’s high heel.

[3] a fabulous going-away gift from one sarah koh.

[4] actually [and many people get this wrong], it is a missus claus hat. you can dig around in the photos section for shots of me in costume last christmas.

[5] my furby talks, all right. but he only talks to me. i got him free in a mcdonalds happy meal.

[6] eric never drinks beer. but visitors to eric’s bed tend to drink beer, and they tend to leave their half-empty [mmhmm] cans all over the place.

[7] it says hotel mirimar, 17310 lloret de mar — girona. i’ve been to madrid, barthelona and ibitha. this don’t ring any bells for me.

[8] i have horrible insomnia. i also have all 137 episodes of will & grace on my computer. i watch, on average, 2 episodes before nodding off each night/morning.

[9] one song at a time, natch. the overplayed-song-of-the-week is bang bang by nancy sinatra, or the sorta-novel, sorta-catchy audio bullys remix.

[10] i’ve rumors of this happening in my bed, but i have yet to confirm them. hidden cameras are being installed to monitor unauthorized activities.

rude boyz


mustard

you might pretend to start out the evening all elegantly, agonizing over which starter to get, complaining to the waitron that your wine glasses are mismatched or [mentally, passive-aggressively] throwing a fit that you weren’t served promptly enough.

the thing is.

well.

see…

the thing is, right…

the thing is, that, well, there really are just two ways in which a night out in london can end up.

regardless of whether you’re a suit or a student, there’s an easy way to summarize one’s evening. in london, you either end up shelling out £2.50 at 137am for a sausage covered in mustard—or you don’t. either you drunkenly gobble down some pork by-products—or you don’t.

tonight, for the first time in years, i gobbled down a sausage. really the only way i can be certain is that i have mustard on my shoes and my post-clubbing breath is even worse than usual.

i remember 7 years ago, the first time i stayed out past last tube, exiting .g-a-y after seeing the venga boys. stumbling haphazardly towards trafalgar square to try to find a night bus to take me home to bethnal green. slaloming along charing cross road, i smelled, i saw, i drooled, i bought, i gobbled, and i felt just a little bit better.

tonight wasn’t much different. dinner, conversation, a firm decision to not go out drinking. drinking, conversation, a firm decision to not go out clubbing. clubbing, conversation, a firm decision to not do any drugs. drinking, dancing, a firm decision to not pull anyone. dancing, flirting, coat check, a firm decision to not take a taxi home. and then a sausage.

yeah, so, it turns out i’m leaving london.

i know, it sucks.

no matter where i end up, presumably i’ll just continue bitching and bitching and bitching about how wonderfabulous london is. glamorizing the £2.50 sausage, even more so than i am now.

how annoying will i be?!

gaydate

sat eins
tv on tv

flatmate .greg and i stayed in last night, polishing off a few bottles of wine, watching the finalé of america’s next top model, repeats of desperate housewives, the pilot episode of roseanne [the one where .greg had his 15 minutes of fame playing deej], and hours of music videos on mtvbase/mtvdance/mtv/mtv2/vh1/vh2/vh1classic/thebox/tmf/etc.

eventually, we cruise on up to the gay dating channels. yes, that’s right, channels. there are a handful of them, sandwiched between the straight dating channels, the straight erotic channels, and the community/religious/black channels.

on the straight dating channels, the chat room and call-ins sound like pub conversation. pretty respectable, a little bit flirty… the lads are lads and the girls are girls. on the straight erotic channels, you have a superduper split-screen view, with 3 frames on the left, and one big frame on the right. each frame has a different girl, with her ear to the phone, taking orders from whomever’s paid £1.50/minute to call in and get their rocks off. they’re all dressed like tatu/brittney wannabes. bless.

the gay dating channels, though, are sleazy and strange and sad. there’s a chatroom-esque scroller where people can send sms texts in. and there are video clips, presumably recorded at naff, northern gay pubs. and there are throaty call-ins, where you glumly hear hi. this is wayne. i’m a curious northern lad looking for a good time. with sobs and pangs of guilt in the background.

just as in real life, half of the gay people who use this service are not actually gay at all—they’re curious/bi/first timers. just as in real life, the other half are pre- or post-op trannies, and/or midgets and/or obese and/or into yellow/brown/red.

wait a sec—i’m not trying to belittle my bi/trans/fetish friends. i’m just saying, why pay £1.50/minute or 70p/text for the slim chance of finding some like-minded punter on sky channel 768 at 413am, when you can easily use a free service like gaydar to hone in more easily on your soulmate/prey/next victim?

after going through 3 cases of wine, .greg and i were in hysterics poking fun at the sad souls on the different channels. we very nearly called in, but even with blurred vision i knew better than to let some dodgy phone sex line know my phone number.

eventually, dehydrated drunken and delusional, i slumped off to bed. i woke up early, pleasantly nauseated and dehydrated and hungover, but enjoying the first solid night’s sleep i’ve had in ages. putting the kettle on, formulating my plan for the day, i remembered that the guy i sold some crap to on ebay was coming over later to pick up his item.

2pm, knock at the door, and this boy walks in to pick up the item he’s buying off me.

did you get caught in the rain? i ask him.

rain? what rain?

i explain, oh, it rained about an hour ago

an hour ago? oh, i was still in bed. i work late, you see. i help run a few of those late-night gay dating channels on sky…

shmooze


london is an illusion

17yo lads lunging for me. tall lanky depeche mode fans fleeing me, familiar friends slagging me off, random acquaintances trying to marry me. i love, i hate, i love, i despise nights like this. typical london shmoozy nights.

marcos dragged me out of my self-induced depression/coma to see temposhark, an up-and-coming-but-actually-already-quite-good electro band, at cargo. allow me to condense 5 hours:

amazing performance.
only marcos and i dance.
free drinks.
flirt with the singer rob.
really flirt with the bass player luke.
majorly flirt with random tall boy sam, who claims to be depeche mode fan.
flirt with random girl.

see, it starts out all rock star shmoozy, but then eric drags the party to .heaven, where it becomes sleazy straighty touristy ugly.

.heaven on a monday used to be an amazing gay student night. i’m absolutely not heterophobic. i am, however, a connoisseur of clubs. from this point forward, i am officially boycotting .heaven on a monday. the 2500-capacity megaclub is now filled with angry, smelly, poorly dressed, clueless, chavvy, hairy straight tourists who are there to spill drinks on me, step on my feet and shove their smelly armpits onto my eyeball. the absolute worst-of-the-worst, gold chains, ponytails, can’t dance, knocking you over to get to their hoochies kinda straight crowd.

i felt guilty for dragging marcos there. normally, i’d flirt with the boys in the vip, i’d mosh with the indie kids upstairs, i’d roll my eyes and bounce to some pop in the middle room. but, no, not tonight. tonight i felt as if i was at the hippodrome, or, more precisely, i felt as if i was at an awful youth hostel disco in some eastern european suburb. i don’t say that in a racist way—i say that in a connoisseur of club sort of way.

so, the evening started out amazingly glamorous—free drinks, schmoozing with an amazing up-and-coming band, and it ended in a tragedy of poor music and ugly, common, unhappy clubbing.

you never know with london… all i can hope, all i can imagine, is that tonight was a progression of my life, my reputation, my existence. you can only hope that, in addition to having a bit of fun, you’ve made some interesting connections that will further establish your london existence.

do you want to come over and watch some depeche mode concert dvds?
     i have a boyfriend…
yeah, me too. so?
     well… umm… i dunno.
can i have your number?
     erm. umm. yeah. i guess so….

stop infant circumcision!

with the right firefox extension you can do anything, even repairing a lost, missing, discarded or otherwise mutilated foreskin. i strongly recommend installing all of the following extensions:

adblock
filters almost all ads from sites you visit.

bettersearch
enhances google, yahoo, del.icio.us and other sites by adding previews [thumbnails] and special links to the search results.

bugmenot
lets you bypass compulsory web registration by filling in someone else’s username/password.

downthemall
straightforward download manager allows you to download all of the files on a given page.

forecastfox
shows the current weather and 5-day forecast in any statusbar or titlebar. easier than, say, looking out the window.

foxytunes
control winamp [or any other media player] from within firefox. great with streaming internet radio to peep the current song.

gsuggest
brings the google suggest autocomplete feature into the firefox search box.

ieview
for those pages that just won’t work in firefox, this gives you an easy way to launch a page in internet explorer.

linkification
converts http:// and other strings in a page into clickable links.

openlongurl
gives you a multi-line “open” dialogue so you can cut-and-paste urls which are wrapped to multiple lines [from email, etc].

slim extension list
sorts and shrinks the extension list in firefox.

spellbound
adds spell checker support to web forms and extensions. right-click any form field and do a spell-check. great for bloggers.

tabbrowser extensions
lets you set up smart tabbed browsing. i have tabs on the left, with off-site links always opening in a new background tab. also handles popups smartly. this is the first extension you should download.

if you really wanna stalk me, you can very lamely peek at my firefox in action with all the bells and whistles. geek.




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