archive for April, 2003

it is for free

bonbons indeed
gentleman prefer blonds

that’s my excuse, and i’m sticking to it. i [re]bleached my hair earlier today to make it look a bit more natural, and more uniform. and i was sporting my hot new commodore 64 tshirt. and, miraculously, i didn’t overdrink. woo hoo me!

met up with cousin michael, andrew, carl and luke for some farewell cocktails, as luke is moving to manchester and carl is resuming his studies [of what, cider?] at coventry. everyone was in a zany/zesty mood, and we hit some strange bars, including comptons [which felt surprisingly comfortable], ending up at the retro bar and then, of course, .heaven.

no guestlist, no v.i.p., no queue jump, nothing. tonight i was a commoner, and it felt great! drank danced drank with the boys. scooped up some aussie named paul. pleasantly shunned manchester rory. received xy adulation from a barely-18yo cutie named robin, who took his shirt off after i produced my business card. flirted horribly with polish jamie, who insisted that he had a boyfriend, but later changed his story on the nightbus home. crossed paths with model joel, leaving things horribly unresolved. shmoozed with bob [and apologized for trashing his bar last wednesday]. in fact, i think i inserted my phone number into perhaps a dozen mobile phones last night—these are the joys of being sober!

i carefully applied flirtation technique #33 to this skinny dancer boy named simon. #33 is quite simple… it’s basically a very simple, go and dance in front of them and smile and nod technique, only stretched out over the course of the entire evening. so, every 20 minutes or so, i’d dance maybe 10 feet away from him and his gal pals on the dancefloor, and then mYsTeRiOuSlY disappear.

i’m so cool, i know. miraculously, it worked, and he and i really hit it off. and—get this—we exchanged phone numbers rather than hooking up. as karen walker might say whilst visiting a laundromat, how fun! he’s just the most delicious creature i’ve ever laid eyes on, and, miraculously, he’s smitten with me.

so, after one night out, i actually allowed several conversations about my americanism [normally i punch people in the face], and even better, i’m expecting calls from dancer simon, polish jamie and 18yo robin. yay me. yay sobriety.

i’ve got something to put in you!

bush & blair version
bush & blair
joel's version
flying viking kittens

just in one dreary london monday morning, i’ve managed to stumble across two frightfully amusing versions of the electric 6 hit, gay bar. the tune is not nearly as good as danger, high voltage!, but these videos give those glowing codpieces a run for their money. fer real.

you got one life to live who’s right who’s wrong

solo duck
treading water

i went for an unexpected walk in finsbury park today. unexpected because, being the hermit that i am, i usually carefully plan each and every trip outside of my home. you wouldn’t have recognized me, certainly, as i was unshaven, wearing glasses, hair all mussed and dressed extra laddish.

i went to visit the pond, my favorite part of the park, and just stare at the geese and swans and ducks and pigeons and crows and other fowl they have there. it’s very relaxing, and very much london—all the beauty of nature, the quaintness of the rowboats, and the grime of the floating rubbish.

with cultural amusement, i watched several large impromptu football matches in progress… one with 20 osama bin laden lookalikes. i was much more threatened by the prospect of having to girlishly kick back a stray ball, then by any of them being anti-american. i spent some time sorting through the nonstop hedonistic craziness of the past few weeks. the boys. they mayhem. the constant persuit for… what… sex? love? a husband? answerless, i decided that i’ll probably settle down in a few years, and maybe even resume my serial monogamy. when i was 20, it seemed, my life was so simple. i used to be so pure and romantic.

i think about the mistakes i’ve made with regards to my love life over the past few months. boys who loved me who i couldn’t, wouldn’t, didn’t love back. irish lee, wisconsin chris, model joel. each lovely, sweet, and entirely too nice to me. each of them, painful trophies of how i’m still finding my way in this city, this adolescence. with each of them, i feel some precursor to regret… in the back of my mind, thinking, that when i’m 50 i’m going to look back on my lost loves with incredible amounts of regret.

taking a stroll through the woods, i started to mentally prepare myself for work. since my boss’s arrival on tuesday, i’ve been subconsciously stressing about the impending change to my lifestyle. no more working from home. no more sleeping in. no more taking coffee, lunch, tv breaks at my leisure. also, though, no more staying-up till 6am on the phone with my boss.

i need to invest more energy in my friendships, my relationships, my family, and maintaining some normalcy to my life that doesn’t revolve around drinking and clubbing and cheap love affairs. life happens in cycles, and i’m going to try my best to wind down this cycle of debauchery.

michael’s tale of his trip to the park has left me breathless. it’s an interesting concept—knowing that something is there, waiting for you. but is it good enough for you? this quest for perfection, it could be the end of me.

beats at the office

bis!
this is the last time that i’ll say my name
i’ve made mistakes but i am not ashamed

bis on stage, taken with my dodgy phone it was with excitement and sadness that i went to the bis concert last night. i’d like to think that the scottish eurodisco/electropop group is one of my favorites, although i’d never managed to see them play live before. famous for such things as being the first unsigned act on top of the pops, the powerpuff girls theme, and really just having a fun sound that sounds fresh, unique and current in 2003. last night was their final [london] gig, and i dragged darian to pogo along with me. you can enjoy a few bis tunes here or on evijhserf radio. although i know most of their catalog, i only recognized about half the tunes last night, bis on stage, taken with my dodgy phone as steve, manda and john took a stroll down their 6-year-long career.

[cue gentle, subtle orchestral segway]
i shall miss them, but their music will live on forever. it was quite excellent to catch up with darian, and with little convincing we trekked to .ghetto for some sweaty saturday night fun. my boys were there [atif and john, .gregiño and james] as were several of my stalking victims. i spent my first hour at .ghetto scoping out the joint and trying to find someone suitable for procreation recreation. i found this one lanky white boy, who looked a bit innocent and very straight-laced… athletic perhaps. i applied flirtation technique #161 [smiling whilst looking away, with occasional oops-the-dancefloor-is-too-crowded-let- me-just-move-in-over-here brushes and tickles]. my technique was working completely to plan, and he was on the verge of professing his undying love to me, when that bastard friend of mine, darian stole him from me. the poor boy nearly started crying as darian dragged him home. although i was steaming mad, and although darian had done this before, perhaps it wasn’t a question of right and wrong but more just a question of timing. bis on stage, taken with my dodgy phone yeah. i love my darian, but maybe next time i’ll claim a piece of the dancefloor far removed from his mojo.

also there was amer, the spikey red mohawk pakistani boy from popstarz a month ago, and also the film festival. we chatted for a bit, flirting and trying to figure out what the hell is going on between us. he fancies me, i fancy him. he has/had a boyfriend, which has been on again, off again, and i tend to meet him in the gaps when they’re off. we had pretty much hooked up when i turn to my mate atif and make a finger-in-mouth gagging gesture, which i used to imply that amer was taking the piss and playing hard-to-get, but what amer interpreted to mean i thought he was disgusting. a bit too too too much drama for one evening, so we swapped numbers and i tiptoed home whilst nobody was looking.

cheeky boys

sky thingie
beau beau beautiful

after my cloning feat the other day, i’ve completed another science experiment, this time linking mark and i telepathically. the procedure was successful, and we no longer need to converse, as our brain alpha-patterns are perfectly synched. with no prompting, we met at leicester square, proceeded to balans where we had cocktails, a hearty meal and some lovely chiléan merlot, and drinks at friendly society with no discussion, decisions or even questioning the menu. well done.

at sahara nights we accosted a group of ballet dancers. talk about fresh meat—it was their first time out in london, and they were an even mix of gay boys and fag hags. easy enough prey… just befriend the girls and the boys will come. and they did.

at .popstarz we ran into the estranged lovely .gregiño, the delicious darian and the oh, i’m sorry for flirting with you on wednesday boy known as swedish jakob. sure, he’s hot, and lovely, and sometimes interesting, but the boy has i-s-s-u-e-s… i think he’s incapable of dating/loving/enjoying himself. sad.

i spent part of the evening chasing after this art student lad that simon the biter and i had befriended a looooong time ago. he was flirty, i was flirty, but he couldn’t stop talking about simon. give me a break. i should’ve told him why simon wasn’t out tonight… cuz he was shmoozing with our old friend, the former mp-cum-sugardaddy, mp mark. gross.

so, after giving up on swedish jakob and art student, i danced and danced, and took a stroll through the beat bar, where this boy runs after me. halfway down the staircase, he’s like, you’re not going home are you? i say, no, why? and he’s like, cuz i’m gonna pull you.

gay life in london *is* so incredibly straightforward. matt was lovely, randy and incredibly cheeky and perhaps we might cross paths again.

shined on me

gary rowett, my doppleganger

eric bogs gary rowett

i wasn’t going to tell anyone, but i accidentally cloned myself a little over a week ago. clubber eric has been clubbing non-stop [out till at least 4am tuesday, thursday, friday, saturday, sunday, this wednesday]. xy eric has been pretending to work, setting up our new office and working on everyone’s favorite site. homebody eric has been at home, relaxing, cooking spicy chicken tikka masala, taking bubble baths and doing some washing. pretentious eric has been shmoozing with the glitterati of london, jumping on several pseudocelebrity bandwagons, riding them to parties and functions and mansions and hotels. i’ve also been playing a spot of footie, under the stage name gary rowett [left]. blythe gave me this clipping last week, insisting he looks just like me. the only other person i’ve been told i resemble is ben affleck, and that was by two crazy french/peruvian/aussie gals.

my clones each have minds of their own, and at this point i have no idea what we’re doing this weekend. will we succumb to the allure of more namedropping and starfucking? perhaps just a chilled weekend at home? perhaps i’ll work? perhaps i’ll just go pick up some boys at .popstarz.

we shall see. two fun links:

welcome to the wacky world of whizzball!, the virtual playground for super-smart whizzards.

this is your pilot speaking. we’ll shortly be landing on a cow.

can we get some girls in here?


the iceman cometh

i’m a pretty lousy starfucker/namedropper. i could just pretend to be blasé, to be above getting giddy when i spot a celeb, but i am, really, just clueless—9 times out of 10 i have no idea who quote-unquote famous people are. i can not begin to tell you how many times my friends have said, oh my god you were just standing next to that bloke from that movie or you do know you were dancing next to madonna, right? or you know the boy you just shagged was on a soap last year? last night was a healthy dose of that same pleasant cluelessness-cum-elitism.

around 4am or so, we piled into the hotel suites of shawn and james [iceman and cyclops] from x-men 2. they were sweet as punch, just as drunk as i, and were a bit confused as to why a gaggle of gay boys had come home with them… sprawled out on their beds, we laughed, we cried. yeah, right. james is hubba hubba moviestar cute, and shawn has the more classic shy-with-amazing-eyes look. i’d like to hint that there was a wild orgy or other debauchery, but, you know, i don’t kiss and tell. right. throughout the party at .heaven, they commented [more than once], ummm… any chance we could get some girls in here?.

the energy at the little x-men 2 party was pretty impressive, and i don’t think it was because of the celebs. i dragged in my recently arrived boss peter, as well as atif, flatmate adam, andrew, karl, to meet up with the usual departure lounge peeps [john, tom, heaven paul, bob and of course manny]. in-between seducing john and flirting with blonde peter, we gingerly poked fun at the american movie stars transplanted to this seedy gay london backroom.

x-men fan extraordinaire, swedish jacob, made a surprising appearance with a new doo, and we had a chance to flirt actually talk a bit. jacob tends to be either completely dull and self-absorbed, or completely drunk and stupidly flirtatous, but last night we actually made coherent conversation, and i let him flirt with me for a change. i’m not necessarily hooked on him, but i am intrigued. he is hot, swedish respectable and sometimes amusing, after all.

so, yeah, little private party at their hotel, then a little lock-in at a certain pub where i tended bar for kicks [spilling drinks but really enjoying it], and then a very pleasant taxi ride home as the sun came up. i want to tell you more, dear reader, but all i can say is that a good time was had by all—both superheroes and mere mortals.

steak out


we love gay boys!

after what seems like an eternity of plotting and scheming, it’s finally happened… as of today i will have a colleague in the same country as me! no more dreadful commutes back to san diego every few months. no more teleconferencing till 6am. no more working all by lonesome from the home office.

met my boss and good friend peter at the airport yesterday, to begin the next phase of our adventures. there were hordes of screaming girls, holding up signs we love peter and xy is dreamy!. i had knock over a few schoolgirls in order to usher him into the waiting tinted-window range rover.

we’ve worked together for only a year now, but in that time both he, i and the magazine have gone through a lot of drama, stresses, adventures and time zones. we’ve worked together now in san francisco and san diego, but this will be the first time that we’ve both actually lived in the same city. one would assume that our efficiency, our work ethic and our general happiness should improve.

we enjoyed an entirely american meal at maxwell’s late last night, and we had the restaurant all to ourselves. we spent maybe an hour grubbing and chatting and hatching diabolical plans. at the end of the meal, the manager comes over, acting slightly peculiar, and says the meal’s on the house, but could you please hurry up and leave? we were pretty much done anyway, so it wasn’t a problem, and we assumed they just wanted to close up shop.

as we’re leaving, we’re stopped by a man and a woman with notepads and radios. they ask if we had seen the event and they want our details. we’re utterly confused. the manager comes over, and tries to tell these plainclothes police officers, they’re just customers, they didn’t see anything and tries to usher us out the door. after a few questions, we find out that while peter and i were dininig, the place was held up. at gunpoint. this is in hampstead, mind you, on a tuesday. i’m shocked that i didn’t notice [i'm usually very much a busybody perceptive] and also shocked that this sorta thing could happen in such a nice neighborhood. but i guess that’s where i would go to rob restaurants too.

my word, that was fun!


don’t you know who i think i am?

the boy looked at johnny and said
my word that was fun
when he did it with his hat on
in a saddle with his gun
we’re in slow motion eating breakfast
at the side view hotel
oh sipping down [a treat?]
everything’s going so well

new york city’s very pretty in the night time
oh oh don’t you miss soho
where everybody goes

the boy looked at johnny
he said don’t you know who i think i am
well i knew you once before
now i’m trying all i can
no no no no no
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
no no no no no
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
new york city’s very pretty in the night time
oh oh don’t you miss soho
where everybody goes

the boy looked at johnny
by the libertines

you know i’m satisfied


this type of modern life, is it for me?

48 hours of non-stop debauchery:

saturday scooped up mark and andrew in soho for some bank holiday debauchery, before meeting up with atif at retro bar to hit heaven paul’s birthday party at .heaven. got there just as the party was bumping, giving birfday smooches to the birfday boy and other innocent victims. after enjoying free birfday cocktails, rejoined the commoners, crossing paths upstairs with hiphop marcos, alex and even superman from the previous night at .popstarz.

saw two of the boys from the salon, and thoroughly enjoyed feigning ignorance as they tried to bedazzle me in the cloakroom queue. whilst queueing, one turns [knowingly] to me, saying oh, hello! [which really meant oh, hello cute boy, aren't you impressed to meet me?]. my blank look, american accent and disinterested demeanor certainly put them in their places.

the private party, the music and entire crowd at .heaven were perfect for a bank holiday saturday, but at 4am it was time to leave. ran into model joel, whom i had been avoiding for a few weeks, and scooped him up to go to beyond with the boys. beyond was absolutely perfect, with the perfect mix of lasers, lads, chemicals and jubilation. andrew and mark left me around 9am, while i fluttered around, eventually leaving beyond around noon for 18-on-a-scale-of-1-to-10 loving with joel. nothing’s more satisfying that watching a boy’s eyes roll back into his head and lose their ability to speak :twisted:

rather than sleeping sunday afternoon, i only had time for a quick shower before going to a delightful easter dinner at manny’s with mark. we enjoyed a very chilled, very classy evening, with cocktails, homemade cuisine and gossip with the movers and shakers of gay london. after being awake for 24 hours, the wine and grub started to make eric a bit sleepy, but that was quickly remedied with a brisk commute to universe for a redux of new years eve.

ran into wisconsin chris just outside the universe, which made me tingle from tip-to-tail. why did we stop chatting? what ever happened between us? why did i let him slip away. i’m a dumb dumb boy.

stepping into universe around midnight, mark and i felt as if we had never left after new years, that is, the megaclub had been going non-stop for the past four months. for the six hours we were there, not much is remembered except [1] mark and i know approximatley 600,000 gay men in london, [2] the floors of the club are made of mashed potatoes and all slanted, and [3] there were zero shiny disco balls. at one point, my mind fell into a recursive stack overflow… i was aware that i was aware that i was confused that i was aware that i wasn’t moving but that i was dancing and that i wasn’t making sense but that i was aware of everything. i blame the lasers.

i dunno what i would do [or how i would've survived this weekend] without a companion like my marky. even in the depths of chemical paranoia, we still managed to communicate telepathically. as per my fetish from friday and saturday, i found myself still/again lusting after/onto several skinny skinhead lads [the politically-incorrect auschwitz look], and there were plenty at universe, ripe for the pickin’.

at 5am we trekked over to orange/a:m which was pretty much idential to beyond 24 hours prior, except twice as many peeps, twice as hot, and generally more mayhem, crowding and queueing for the drug-ingesting cubicles toilets. .gregiño was amusingly there, which was great but disconcerting, as he represents youth and innocence and r’n'b funk, whereas that place represents clichéd circuit-boy hedonism and the dark side of clubland.

amazingly, when we left orange/a:m this morning, i was perfectly awake, sober and coherent, although i had been awake for nearly 48 hours, about half of which were spent on the dancefloor.

dancing. clubs. boys. socializing. smiles. exercise. sex. music. meditation. joy. and you know i’m satisfied.




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